but i drove here by monica pruitt

My name is Monica Pruitt, and I found out Iā€™m going blind this year at age 29.

Imagine the irony in driving to the ophthalmologist to get an updated contacts prescription, and after spending 4 hours getting every eye exam the office had, being told youā€™re legally blind and not allowed to drive anymore. 

ā€œBut I DROVE here!ā€

That appointment changed everything. I saw a retinal specialist a few days later because maybe the first doctor was somehow wrong about me. No one can see in the darkā€¦ right? Everyone has to walk staring at their feet so they donā€™t tripā€¦ right? Anxiety with driving is normal because everyone has to constantly scan and look around because itā€™s like they have tunnel visionā€¦ right? Wrong. I had grown so accustomed to my defective vision that I didnā€™t realize how much I really couldnā€™t see. 

Retinitis Pigmentosa, cataracts, retinal tear, night blindness, light sensitivity, tunnel vision, astigmatism, myopia; such a long list of reasons why my eyes no longer worked well. In the United States legally blind is defined as visual acuity 20/200 or less in your better eye or unable to be corrected or field of vision 20Ā° or less. With glasses, my 20/800 acuity is able to be corrected, but my 15Ā° peripheral vision defines me as legally blind. Retinitis Pigmentosa is a genetic condition that is characterized by damage to the photoreceptor cells in the retina leading to night blindness; tunnel vision; and for some, it can lead to complete blindness. It is a degenerative condition with no current treatment or cure.

After being confirmed by two separate medical professionals that I had Retinitis Pigmentosa, it was advised I get genetic testing because since I also am hard of hearing, it was very likely I have Usher Syndrome. Usher Syndrome has three subtypes: each one characterized by varying degrees of severity of vision loss, hearing loss, and balance disorder.

While waiting months for the genetic results to come back, I went ahead and got set up with division of blind services and started attending classes at the Miami Lighthouse School for the Blind. Iā€™ve been incredibly grateful for these programs because with classes like Orientation & Mobility; Home & Personal Management; Braille; and Technology classes I am able to learn how to maintain my independence as a blind person. 

Eventually, the genetic results came back and confirmed I have Retinitis Pigmentosa due to Usher syndrome type 2A. Since my vision loss is progressing quickly and my moderate-severe hearing loss is relatively stable with hearing aids, I have been immersing myself in the blind/low vision community. 

Learning to use a white cane has been one of the hardest things in my journey. It is firstly challenging because it requires a lot more coordination than I anticipated. Secondly, using the white cane in public, while itā€™s extremely helpful, makes me feel self-conscious of how others may perceive me. At the Lighthouse, they can teach me how to use the cane, but I am responsible for using it despite any self-esteem qualms.

White Cane Day is celebrated on October 15th; the Lighthouse is hosting an event that day, and I could not be more excited to proudly walk the neighborhood with my white cane. The more people are aware of vision conditions and those who use a white cane, the easier it becomes for people like me. 

Monica Pruitt